[He knows, but it's still hard to focus. It's hard to keep himself calm because... well, he's always been emotional, hasn't he? It would be easier if he could shut down, shut it off, but then he wouldn't be able to focus on the things that matter. He has to focus.]
[It sounds stupid and she sounds like a doctor and he hates anything associated with doctors but he does his best to just focus on the numbers and breathe in time.]
[... It's working, but there's still that twisting in his gut that makes him want to start yelling and lashing out even if he can't move.]
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[He knows, but it's still hard to focus. It's hard to keep himself calm because... well, he's always been emotional, hasn't he? It would be easier if he could shut down, shut it off, but then he wouldn't be able to focus on the things that matter. He has to focus.]
[It sounds stupid and she sounds like a doctor and he hates anything associated with doctors but he does his best to just focus on the numbers and breathe in time.]
[... It's working, but there's still that twisting in his gut that makes him want to start yelling and lashing out even if he can't move.]