He freezes at the contact, closes his eyes and wipes at his face. No. He has to stop crying, he has to keep going. Even if his emotions are killing him, he has to keep at it.

"Maybe. But it's true. I'm... I know I'm not as bad as he was, but I... it's like I can't feel it anymore." Even though he's crying, it's hard to feel something. Why is he like this? It's so stupid, but he can't make himself feel anything.